Well...I am Clearly

a liar. Its like the moment I said I was taking a MIA from this blog....this blog always crosses my mind.....must be the fact that I made it forbidden that I want it....ya know how that goes, LOL. Don't want much. Just in a great mood. I don't know about ya, but I am so excited for 2010...think its going to be one of my best years! Single....no kids...slightly fat pockets (nah, they actually rabbit ears, but I MAKE money for what I want to do, keeps it pimping, smile).....a travel calendar that is out of this world (if my friends and I stick to it, LOL)....IDK ya...just everything is peachy-king right now. AND I'm jamming to USDA's Corporate Thuggin....so amped up.....ya know I love hardcore rap....one of (my many) guilty pleasures. Gotta get my side-hustle game on next year too....looking forward to starting that....more details later. Alright, back to work. Deuces.

I'm Back for a Second....

did ya just see that Redskins vs. Saints game? AWESOME! ok, bye....again, LOL.

Short Term MIA

...OKKKK, this is the VERY BUSY time of season for my job. I'm in the nonprofit industry and the name of the game is giving back....the charity I work for prides itself in "doing the most good", and during the holidays we are known for a little ringing noise that you hear outside of many chain stores. Anywhoo....with that said, I will holla back at you guys after Dec. 21st...thats when our major campaigns are over. Everything in my life is great...just trying to keep my head above water, so I gotta chuck the deuces to ya for a couple weeks (unless something comes up that I just gotta talk about, LOL). TTYSoon! XOXO.

Just Chilling

on my couch. Got the Soul Train awards on mute...just glance up from time to time to see whats good. Charlie Wilson is being honored now. Listening to Ryan Leslie's "You Not My Girl"....love this jam and its hilarious cuz if you listen to the lyrics I should be offended....he down for everything but the label. Amazing what a nice melody and bassline will have you grooving to. Anywhoo. Hope your Thanksgiving was nice. Mine was great. Had the extended family invited over this year...usually its just my parents, my sister and I, but this year we had bout 30 folks up in there. My sister and I also had some nice eye candy stop by....our "friends", LOL. My crush got whipped in pool by my uncles, was hilarious. Overall, it was just a blessing to be happy during this holiday season. Amazing how far I've come in 2009....I know ya sick of hearing that, but it really is surreal to me....just a few months ago I was at my lowest and tonight I would say I'm at my highest. Jesus rocks. But people....along with that happiness came some happy pounds....after I done grinded hard this past spring/summer to lose them, LOL. The holiday season is not the time to diet, but I just want to change my lifestyle and stick with it dangit! Brought a poster, hung it up in my bedroom and wrote on it: Lifestyle Update; Effective Immediately: NO SODA, NO CANDY, VERY LOW CARB INTAKE, NO EATING AFTER 8P.M. AND EXERCISE DAILY. And this is incredibly random, but there is nothing like the feeling of being in love and knowing that its reciprocated. Aww shucks, Raheem Devaughn on the awards....loves him. TTYL.

About Time!

One of my FAVORITE artists has finally given information on the release date of her CD. Ya know Sade hasn't released anything in like 10 years right? That fact really doesn't phase me because ALL of her music is timeless in my eyes....love listening to artist's works and you don't know if its 20 years old or if its new material that just hit the Net. Anywhoo, I hear it will be released on Valentine's Day next year. I don't know if I will have a Valentine this February, but I know I already have my 2010 Valentine's Day playlist, smile. If she tours, I will just float in air if I make it to one of her concerts....she always makes me feel light as a feather. ....and, HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING! We all have so much to be thankful for....more than you know. God Bless.

Not My Best Weekend....

I volunteered to work our city's holiday parade as a Parking Assistant yesterday....didn't know it was going to be that COLD during my volunteer shift so my 4 and a half shift felt more like 8 hours....really don't need my sickle cell to stay what's up to me this week...its Thanksgiving Week!...geez. Wale was scheduled to come to our mall yesterday, but had to cancel because he got in a car accident. I was so looking forward to chatting it up with him and getting him to sign my CD and his mixtapes I burned. He is OK though, so thats all that matters. My work email is not working...not letting me log on. This is horrible because I average 60+ emails a day during this time of year....can't let my inbox get out of control. I emailed our IT person in DC and told him I will seriously drive to his office tomorrow if need be to get this fixed. I miss a close friend of mine...sucks. AND I cried today. Of course I thought I was going to be lucky to bypass my job's employee Christmas dinner this year......last year, we didn't have one because of budget crunching....got that dreaded invitation in my mailbox on Friday and cringed. I was SO looking forward to not having to deal with whom I am taking as my guest this year. Its awkward cuz although I am divorcing I do have a 'friend' I can take, but I decided I want to respect my union all the way to the end...when I get my divorce decree is when I will go on front street with my suitors. So I texted my sister if she wanted to roll.....she agreed with the quickness, she just needs an offer of a free meal to be up in the place, LOL. I cried cuz I was just frustrated at yet another situation caused by my estranged that caused a moment of anger/desperation. Filling out that RSVP was a circumstance when I had to deal with my fleeting marital status head on and I didn't appreciate it. Enough I got to deal with all the confused faces when I roll up in the party withOUT my husband......I got to see all of my other employees with their significant others! Jesus gonna have to take the wheel to get me through that dinner without breaking down......I don't know if I'm going to make it....just typing this sentence made my eyes well up. AHHHHH.

NorEaster & Rabbit Ears

Yep...NorEaster hit Norfolk and I live in the eye of where the storm hit. Forget the flooding and having to act like a mouse in a maze to get out my neighborhood (!).....I haven't had power in my apartment since Thursday night at 6p! Just brought my food over to my parents to save it....I NEVER make groceries, the one time I spend like $80 bucks on food a storm comes and threatens all my perishables. Thats life right? I'm not even mad. Finally put down the dreaded $750 on my divorce papers filings this past Wednesday. I know ya thinking, "SavedGirl, I thought you BEEN did that!" I know....its always been on my mind, but I was just so irritated at spending more money on this nigga.....that $2000 grand hit really drained my spirit.....and I ain't even going to get into the $900 hit from the IRS from filing my taxes last year, "Married, but Filing Separately" penalizes you something terrible. I was just tired. BUT....I made myself buckle down and do it cuz I realized there was ALWAYS going to be something that I would rather spend my money on than paying for my papers. For instance, this morning at 10a.m., Jay-Z tickets went on sale, he coming to Norfolk in March. You KNOW I wanted to get me and my sis tickets because our original Jay-Z concert got rained out in ATL this summer. Ugh....can't party all the time I guess.

I Just Got the Honest Scrap & Kreative Blog Awards!!!!

Well, well, well. Looks like the lovely Journee (http://journeeisunique.blogspot.com/) gave me 2 awards....ya know I don't know how to do links yet so shut it, LOL. In addition to bragging rights, I have to reveal 7 unknown things about myself. This is going to be very hard cuz all my readers know I'm pretty much an open book.....but lets dig deeper!

1. I have a giving addiction. I can't save money because I LOVE giving gifts to people. Whenever money comes my way, the first thing I think of is what I can give someone. For instance, just got my security deposit back from my old apartment. What did I do? Flew to the mall to buy my sister these boots she been craving on for weeks. She is in grad school and isn't working so I had to hook her up, thats my girl. I should see this as a problem, but I don't because I rationalize/justify it by saying that I am a channel/vessel of blessings. For me to be such a blessing to others all the time, you know God is hooking up/taking care of me...cuz the blessings have to come through me first. ...but sometimes I do wonder when I'm going to grow up and put some real money in my savings account, LOL.

2. I'm a nympho....yep, as in nymphomaniac. Not only am I boy crazy, but I'm sex crazy.....so you know my current situation is not the business right now! AND eventhough I have come to peace with this revelation, I don't want any help intervention, LOL. I love having an extremely high sexual desire. I don't ever want to be tamed. I am that wild horse running away from the stables. I just think its one of those beautiful quirky things that makes me me. Passion and obsession are my middle names, smile.

3. I love Rock-N-Roll just as much if not more than Rap. Take back that more part, but many-a-day its definitely a tie. Both genres of music are the bomb and have more similarities than one would think. Today, rock-n-roll rules. I'm listening to The White Stripes, "Seven Nation Army" now on repeat.....bassline is sick. Also currently feeling Muse's Uprising hit song right now....LOVES IT!

4. I don't have regrets...ever. I sometimes have remorse on how I dealt with a situation or person, but I don't regret anything I have done or will do. I believe that God orchestrates our every move (even with our Free Will in mind), so why stress on missteps?! Just brush yourself off and keep it moving....your destiny has already been decided by Him. Which reminds me, I hate when people discuss "What If" scenarios. Why put yourself through that torture number #1, but also....its pointless, you can't change the past, so why harp on it? Had an ex-boyfriend that confronted me with that recently and I told him to stop it immediately. I think everyone is doing what they are suppose to be doing and are with who they are suppose to be with right now. Life is incredibly simple to me.

5. I have mixed feelings on having kids....mostly negative. Call me selfish, but the thought of having kids is not joyous to me. Whenever I think of that thought, I cringe with fear and/or anger. A child doesn't represent life/beauty/legacy to me right now, a child represents something that takes away my freedom. I know thats harsh, but its true. I'm just not ready to settle down with having a child yet...still have a lot on my plate I wanna do first. Not saying your life has to end with children, but I do know they need to be a priority and I'm not ready for that yet. I love living by Rocko's standards...."Imma Do Me". Can do what I want when I want. And YES, I know my biological clock is ticking...my mom reminds me daily, LOL.

6. I like arguing/debating. I pick fights with people to get in a heated discussion. Maybe its that passion thing again, but I love any and everything related to high energy. Definitely majored in the right thing in college (BA/MS in Media & Communications) and definitely working in the right position now (PR/Special Events). Don't get me wrong, I don't do this in serious settings (relationship or family issues), but I do it with those people all the time. I'm notorious for challenging my man, friends and family on a view they have on something. Sometimes I could even agree with them, but I just change my view to play-play debate. Crazy I know.

7. I'm a hand washer. I am the most forgiving person....some even argue that I tolerate too much, try to even label me a doormat. I disagree, I just think I'm sweet as sugar! But when I am done with you, I promise.....you are dead to me. You simply don't exist. Its not being cold or malicious. Its just my most healthy way of moving on. I have to cut ties cuz stress causes my Sickle Cell to act up and I really don't care to have people around me that disregrad my wishes/disrespect me and/or are not team players. Can't stand "my way or the highway" type people. Everyone needs to have some compromise and flexibility in their lives. It makes the world go round.

Hope this suffices Journee. Thanks for the awards again babes! I'm so siked that my blog brings so many people joy! But unfortunately I'm off to delete my pics from the blog, LOLOL. Its stuff like this that comes back to haunt you in the future...people twisting your words and stuff. Ya know I'm trying to get my Michelle Obama on, smile. XOXO.

Could Cry Right Now....

not because I'm upset or sad...but tears of joy. I am so happy in my life right now its crazy. Everything in my life has turned for the better. Its weird because many of you know how much I was going through the beginning of this year (if you don't read my posts from January-May). God is so great! I have to thank Him, my friends and family for sticking by my side and YOU. Yep, blogville. My originaly purpose of starting this blog was to use it as a venting outlet/punching bag/diary...whatever you wanna call it to create a release for my emotions of my breakup from my estranged. Never did I think I would have a little following of people checking in on my little life, smile. You guys have really helped me back to life...giving me support and MANY laughs during my lowest time. Its as if you breathed happiness into my spirit. Eventhough I don't respond to all of your comments, know that I read them and I appreciate ya. Much love blogville....xoxo. Now, off to lunch...going to my mom's to look at Everybody Hates Chris. Never knew this show was so funny...didn't look at it when it was out, LOL. It comes on BET from noon-1p.m.

Guess What I Got Ya!!!

Some collar bone. (ya know thats not me in the pic, but thats a great pic of the collar bone definition I want) Noticed them in the mirror when I was getting ready for work this morning. Yep, I haven't seen my collar bones visible in years, LOL. They still are faint, but when I flex, they are very pronounced. I want them pronounced when I'm just chilling. Ya girl is on her way to getting her sexy back....not too thin....cuz I actually love my shape...but I just want to trim a little meat of these bones. The little meat can leave around my stomach and arms specifically....nowhere else! I have grown to love my fat cheeks and my fat a.....shut yo mouth! Collar bones on women have always been very beautiful to me. I would honestly take a beautiful collar bone over a washboard stomach....I know, silly right? Anywayz, thats it. Let me (and my lovely collar bones) get back to work. XOXO.

I'm So....

afraid of being played to the left that I am officially paranoid. I accused my friend of something he didn't do and had to eat humble pie today. He said we are all good but he is NOT accepting my apology. LOL....who is he to tell me what he is not going to accept? But can I please check my insecurities and fears at the door....its getting old. Thats all.